Deception pt2 "Im Cutting Myself With Stones"

As I began to shut down from these frequent experiences with family members and family friends ,I felt myself at a tender young age begin to grow cold on the inside. As a child molester who molested me in front of my little brother was freed of all charges and the lawyers put me if front of the town to mark me as a" attention deprived child with a vivid imagination" the walls became thicker and more fortified. I watched the very innocence of my childhood be dragged away and marred as like the woman caught in the act of adultery and was about to be stoned, but I was barely even 11 years old when all of this finally came to the surface.

Where was God in all of this at that time I had no clue and I figured He didn't care about what was going on with me .Deception 2 God doesn't see or care ,So maybe He doesn't really exist.(John1:1;14, John3:16)

I began to cut and burn myself to feel anything, still at this point I was doing well in sports and school was easy ,but I was alone and the accolades of the crowd only lasted for a moment , but the haunting of the abused seemed to always out last the victory song.

Deception 3 You'll never be anything more than used goods.(2Cor 5:17)

Nobody wants used goods and that was my belief as my world began to fall all to pieces around me. My dreams as a young child to own , invent , be president, change the world and help people turned into a life of trying to survive. The only people that I let in and had not been pushed out of my heart was my close family mainly my brothers and my grandmother. Even my mother and I started to drift apart as she was still trying to find her own way. No one could get in not even God......

You may know people who are able to benefit from theses readings , this isn't just a tool for me to vent but to empower so for every deception I have a scripture references to help you or someone you may know who may need it. You can also find your own

Christ is the source of life and I encourage each of you to began to embark on a journey of your own to uncover the deceptions in your own life and destroy every work of darkness. You may journey with me as I confront my own , and I know that deliverance will soon come as it has for me in this short time of confronting the spirit of deception, until next blog. I love you all. 1w/God

Deception Exposed

For anyone reading this blog Im sorry for the technical difficulties .Obviously the enemy has no desire for me to write on this subject, but I think Ill do it anyway.

Be writing soon to physical/Deception pt2 .Love you all 1w/God

Deception/Perception.

Is your perception full of deception?

I knew I would need to go here for a couple of excerpts to expose this demon of mayhem. As I began to think on what God wanted me to say I began to feel nauseated and that was all the conformation I needed to go forward with this.

The funny thing about this is that God wanted me not to just expose the spirit of deception it self ,but to expose where it has worked in my life as well. So my prayer is that you will find freedom for yourself as I bare my own nakedness. Some content may be a little raw but that's how God wants me to come raw and unformed in "His" image and not "My"own.

Physically- Many females may be able to relate in their own ways on how they have struggled physically. As a young girl I was always the shortest and smallest amongst my group of peers which ranged from family to the few people I called friends.

I was brown skinned with funny eyes and knobby knees, pigeon toed and thick hair that my mom always kept braided up or my grandmother would put in those ugly little plaits ,Make you look like a pic-a- na-ney. Anyway, I loved myself, I thought i was pretty cute , until one day it started with rumors of my mother not really being my mother and my grandmother not really being my grandmother.

My cousin in whom I will not reveal began telling me all types of things about the family and how we werent really related at that time He began to make advances towards me that lead from him playing with my barely formed breast to feeling between my legs, until I was rubbing his penis and him placing it on my face(I could still feel it on my face for the longst time throughout childhood in to adulthood) and wanted me to kiss on it and show me how to give head ,and I refused but the persisting took place and for a young girl I began to learn how to put up walls. Previous verbal and mental abuse help to get me into a dark place where deception could began to speak to me and change my whole perception of my young life, so full of promise was now being snatched away........... Deception #1 Nobody cares and they won't believe you. cont..on next post 1w/God.

The decisions that we make can sometimes leave us in the shadows of life. Know that the decisions that you made on yesterday are the results of your life today. So what you producing in your life?

Blue Letter Bible - Gal 5 (NLT): "When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, your lives will produce these evil results: sexual immorality, impure thoughts, eagerness for lustful pleasure,


Gal 5:20idolatry, participation in demonic activities, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, divisions, the feeling that everyone is wrong except those in your own little group,

Gal 5:21envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other kinds of sin. Let me tell you again, as I have before, that anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God."

Lets look at the hard facts and lets grade our own lives noone needs to do it for you, and if we are honest we can see where our mouths, thoughts and actions have gotten us to where we are today. Whats your Grade? Selah

I Know The Law!!!!!!!!!!
I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe , how than will you believe if I speak of heavenly things?John3:12
Jesus spoke to a renowned pharisee in the middle of the night to try and explain to Him the purpose of the kingdom and how there is only one way to make it in. I tell you the truth no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit.John 3:5. Jesus was explaining that unless you are baptized (water) in the Spirit there is no way you will be able to understand how and what it requires to make it in to the Kingdom. The pharisees prided themselves on knowing the law and they did that because they knew mans law can always be manipulated, but with God He is Truth and there could be no manipulating or controlling Him. Without being born again(natural reasoning) they could understand that Jesus had power to heal, cast out and feed and etc, but they didn't recognize thatJesus was the power. (How many times have we done this?)They knew the Law, but because they were not willing to be born again and renew their minds they missed to see the God of the Law.How many times have we missed extending love ,grace , compassion, repentance , forgiveness, etc, because the Law required a witch hunt or prosecution, burn them at the stake, Crucify them! Did We ourselves miss the Kingdom?Selah. Jesus said to Nicodemus , "If you don't understand the earthly things " . What earthly things do we think we understand and its causing us to miss the Kingdom?(sex, drugs, money, relationships)we believe we know the Law of these but lets let our minds be baptized in the Spirit and see if there are some areas where we have told God I Know The Law and have missed the Kingdom and its King. Repent For The Kingdom of God Is At Hand.
1w/God